Well it's a long time in between...
As you guys know I was thinking of chucking the project in. Basically I just got to a point where I just felt a bit overwhelmed by life circumstances and thought it was best to put everything puppetry off until it resolved. It hasn't, but some other things happened since (some explained above, re: music video).
The other thing was I spent about 2 weeks not doing any puppetry of any kind. Normally if I'm feeling a bit burnt out I'll simply move on to another puppet project, switching back and forth between School of Puppetry or Puppets in Melbourne or two projects for either site. I've been doing that for the past 2 years. Finally I "took a holiday", where I simply watched TV, did a few other jobs - see below - and occasionally kept up with emails. I put everything else on hold. That helped get me out of my head.
The other thing I did was sign up for a freelance website and got myself a couple of paid jobs writing articles. That helped ease my financial worries (seeing as how I've got a puppet sale this month, I knew my income was going to take a dive) as well as giving me something new to do for once. It's kind of nice to write on subjects that I normally wouldn't, and happily got some great feedback from the client. Plus it had the added benefit of making me feel like I can go out and get paid work without necessarily committing myself to some dull temp job in an office which leaves me no time or energy for puppetry pursuits.
I'm trying again to push myself to get through it, though I really do feel as though I need a proper break. I'd love to just do some sewing for a bit instead. However, I'd still like to meet the deadline and try to present something - with any luck to a lot of well-known puppeteers. So I've started building.
Part of the reason why I stopped is sort of a mental block on building the shadow puppet screen. I really didn't have enough money to do what I want - buy some PVC tubing for a frame - and the aluminium framing I have currently sh*ts me no end. In a conversation with Shawn I mentioned doing everything in miniature to make the whole presentation easier on me and make things less frustrated. So I've gone with that idea and am making a screen using leftover materials I have at home.
Surprisingly the screen itself is hardly miniature. Instead of making a huge self-sustaining frame I'm making something that sits on a table-top. However, due to the nature of the flying backdrops, I've needed to make the table-top frame taller than normal. Once the whole thing has been built I'll post some pics/video, but for now...
I had a whole bunch of black foam core pieces leftover from a past show (see the PIM website/blog, look under 'City Head'). I only had small pieces so I've cut the edges into jigsaw shapes so now all the pieces fit together. In the centre will be a piece of clear plastic which will act as my screen. The idea is that the whole frame should be easy to put together and will fit in my car. Initially I thought I'd plan all this out, but I'm kind of just making it up as I go along.
You may be thinking 'how is this a frame?' Well, it's not. Not really... the foam core pieces will act as a hide for the fly/backdrop structure as well as hiding me. The plastic screen will obviously be the area of play. But attached to the back of the foam core will be some of my aluminium frame which will hold up the heavier backdrop pieces. They'll be in a backwards C shape, with the top and bottom of the C sticking out from the back of the foam core to hold up the backdrops and the straight edge of the C attached to the foam core itself (It'll make more sense when I post some pics) Because the foam core is only held together in jigsaw pieces, I will most likely use some velcro or tape to secure it all further.
I have no idea if I'll even get it all made before the summit which is at the beginning of July.
Finally.... thanks to everyone who posted supportive comments. I think in the end pushing through was just making more frustrated and a proper long step away from everything was all that I needed to get back into the right headspace. It just goes to show that holidays were invented for a reason
