I got a feeling that this just shows that I am not determined enough- I let all kinds of things get in my way.

Bah! You're plenty determined!! All anyone has to do is read what you just wrote describing all the trial and error you went through to get to where you are. You could have thrown your hands in the air and given up at any time but you didn't. You kept moving forward. I'm sorry for the current insect delay but I know you'll be back at it as soon as you can and you're going to achieve something really great! Hang in there and remember what Walt Disney said, "If you can dream it, you can do it."

*gg* I'll try. I've never seen those beastly flys before: keds. They don't live in cities or where I lived before but I read that they are a real pain in scandinavia. Maybe it was one of them. Or a forrest mosquito, they are pretty bad, too. I am so glad that we don't get any black flies here, though!
I just wish I could but the things I have in my head on the table- work would be so much faster! And more accurate, I assume.
But don't confort me to much: I really know that I didn't put enough effort in the project- partly because all this restarting has thrown me off a bit. I will try harder from now on, I promise.

I'm just saying I believe in you Rikka and I believe you can do whatever you set your mind to. Have you ever seen Meet the Robinsons? Keep moving forward is the motto to stick with!

No, I am not familiar with that show/ movie. Do you know the fairytale about the land of Cockaigne? In a German version people who want to get there have to eat a tunnel into a montain of semolina pudding until they enter the land where the fried animals run around, where the fountain of youth wells and where milk, honey and wine flow in the rivers. Maybe I am just in the middle of my pudding: a bit fed up, tired of the same stuff over and over again. Sometimes I think I can catch a whiff of the good stuff just across the montains, but there is no shortcut... Thanks a million, Puppetainer, your thoughts are highly appreciated!